Pain

By Dr. Devanshu Pandey on

I am in pain, I am in a lot of Pain.

I can't make my Pain go away, 

I can't stop absorbing and experiencing the Pain,

 I can't help but let the Pain get onto my thoughts.

I am not sure of what makes the Pain tread and then halt, 

I am not sure from where the Pain arises, what can I make of it;

I am not sure how to deal with the Pain, nor do I have anyone to make me understand how to deal with it.

The closest I can describe the Pain is

When you have a big lump of non swallowable ache after a heartbreak,

The Pain isn't new,

 and its been there for a while and while, 

it makes me anxious all the time, 

And my hands are tied to my back, 

while I have to put up a face of composure and generosity;

 to not let it go to other people 

for the Pain feeds on others sanity and itself grows,

thus I everyday, taste it's elements as it shoves itself helplessly down my throat.


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